Where I can be me.

2008-05-05T23:20:00.003+08:00

I no longer use this blog.

I'm keeping my new blog private to new people but if you're an old JSS friend of mine/JJC friend/Concert buddie. Just leave a tag I'll tell you my new blog.

Not that many care. xD

Love, jane.

2008-03-22T19:01:00.002+08:00

Ms Sit smsed me saying, "I need help for a rock festival in july."

July is like the month before August which is the month for singfest.
And my mind is rapidly putting two and two together.
I replied saying, "I'll be more than happy to help."
When my mind was kind of like, "suiakhfjkhanfk OMG WHAT."

She hasn't replied back. DDDD:

2008-01-28T22:36:00.001+08:00

Canaletto's paintings are wonderfully detailed says:
I mean have you seriously considered the prospects of uni entrance?

shawn says:
after one year of JC if you don't like it you can drop to poly, but not the other way round.
besides, it's easier to get into uni through the poly route.

beixin says:
Omg but you got single digit!

Andy says:
wow. ok.

irene from sph says:
if you can go to JC, then why not? it's easier to get into Uni.

fangjie says:
WTF

NP?!

HAHAHHAA

mass comm?

i hope you get in!!!!

----

hi, ily all most of the time.
but would you just accept my own choice and stop telling me it's wrong?
yes, I know poly is hands on. yes, I know poly is stressful. yes, I know it's harder to get to Uni. yes, I know it's 3 years. yes, I know I did well in O levels. yes, I know I can get into ACJC. yes, I know you think I'm stupid.

yes, I really can't be bothered now.

The last 4 days I have cried and cried over whether I'm making the right decision or not.
I. Do. Not. Need. You. To. Tell. Me. That. OMG. Jane. What are you doing?

I chose NP mass comm as my first choice. I scored 9 for my L1R5 raw score. I put ACJC A as my 2nd choice.
SAJC A 3rd.
TP CMM 4th.
NP psychology 5th.
JJ A 6th.
SP CMM 7th.
TP psychology studies 8th.
ACJC S 9th.
SAJC S 10th.
JJ S 11th
NJ A 12th

ok? ok. bye, wish me good luck.

-jane

NINE. =D

2008-01-25T13:24:00.001+08:00

Yesterday was the last day of my secondary school life.
To be honest, I'm sad about that. I'm gonna miss being able to see my friends everyday, I'm gonna miss the teachers there, I'm gonna miss the FOOD there. xD

I still find it so amusing, that during the O's. Not a single one of my papers fell on a thursday. Heck, I almost wrote a poem about thursdays being 'free'. And and, our results came out on a thursday. xDDD

I hope we all keep in touch, don't become strangers, y'all!
Don't break my heart. <3

Also, I can finally. Finally scratch out #5 in my wish list.
Thank you God, Thank you Lord Jesus Christ for granting my wish and answering my prayers.
I'm so happy.
So happy.

I just really hope that I make the right decision now of where to go. And I hope all my friends can go where they want to.
Good luck, loves!!

XINA GOT 7!

xD

ok, I'm gonna go off to eat lunch now. and ponder about where to go.

i'm really happy for my results. haha, i'm sorry, i can't stop saying it.
i still can't believe I passed physics. xD

forever,
jane.

2008-01-15T21:14:00.000+08:00

Tonight sees me being severely pissed off by an elitist jerk who thinks that he is superior and more intelligent than others because he comes from a prestigious school.

Firstly, it is very insulting when people lump or catergorize an entire group of the population based on a few judgements, based on generalisation. You haven't met every single person from a neighbourhood school, don't judge us all as the same person.

Secondly, it's disgusting that you resort to making fun of people's english when you have nothing better to say. If you're googling your own livejournal url and come across my blog, read this. I am from Jurong Secondary School, and the people here are so much better than you. Friendliness, Equality, Sincerity, are things that will get you far in life.

Hey, stop stereotyping everyone from a neighbourhood school as being low classed degenerates, you bigot.

ETA: Both post and LJ have been deleted, if it is perhaps because he has realised how wrong and hurtful his words were, then good for him. Anyway, I have taken down the url from my post.

oh mr chest infection, go awaaaay.

2008-01-10T14:25:00.000+08:00

you know, it's nice to wake up to the fact/wishful thought that there are people who care about you.

maybe it's the antibiotics that are making me this sappy, but it really is nice to know that your prescence is not unnoticed. or maybe, you know, they're lying to make me feel better since i woke up feeling like shit and an eight-wheel lorry just ran over me.

but still, chris, d'aww, you're such a sweet brother. and bei xin, you're such a sweetheart, thanks, sorry I keep bailing on you.

i feel loved, it's a good feeling, even when i'm hacking my lungs out. chest infection, really, dr. ng? not tonsilitis again? chest infection, what the heck is that anyways.

oh Gerard Way, you've made me such a sap i don't even know.

and panic, boys, you sure know how to play the suspense card.
PRETTY. ODD. 03:25:08

so yeah, this post makes no sense unless you're me or like, 3 other people who i msn daily and spill my guts to.

i am now gonna go make my lunch, take my meds and hide in bed.

or you know, stalk lj and feel miserable.

blah,
jane.

2008-01-01T23:38:00.000+08:00

ROSLINA SIM, I LOVE YOU.

Happy new year, everybody. Let's stay in touch. <3

Saying Goooooodbye to 2007.

2007-12-31T19:42:00.000+08:00

So I know, I know. Most of you guys don't even visit here anymore because this blog has been obviously dead for like what, 9 months?
IT'S NOT MY FAULT.
Stupid blogger asked me to make a google account, and so I did, then it got all wacked up.

But now that 2007 is coming to an end, I figure I should follow everyone else and make a review.

This has honest to God been both the most stressful and amazing year.

Top 7(in order of date and not really):
Fall Out Boy Concert: 3rd March.
Getting to meet Patrick and stammering like an idiot? Awesome.

Anberlin/Copeland 'secret' Show: 4th June.
Anberlin & Copeland, 2 of the most down to earth sweetheart bands I've seen. They give the best hugs and talk to you for longer than just 5 seconds. Joey, I'm sorry I made a fool out of myself in front of you. Stepehn, thank you. Christian, I'm sorry I scared you. xD Knate, yes you are tall, but it's alright. It's great even. And Deon, my God you are so happy hyper, Joey wasn't lying. Aaron Marsh, your voice. Your falsetto. Your bad memory. (forgetting the lyrics? awesome. )

SINGfest: National Day 9th August.
I cannot even say. How amazing this day was for me. In actual comprehensible words. I mean, meeting Sisky Biz and the butcher? AND MAKING A FOOL OUT OF MYSELF IN FRONT OF THEM? AWESOME.
and Gabe Saporta, fucking hell. You rule. Thank you for hugging me, for getting me mobbed and for telling me you love me. xD yes, be jealous bitches.
And Ryland, thank you for talking to me.
Jack (the camera guy) and James: Yes I know you guys are "only crew" but we love you nonetheless. You guys are amazingly awesome.

RYLA Camp at Kota Tinggi: 29th November-2nd December
I didn't think I'd enjoy this, possibly because of all the horrible camps I've been to, but thank God I decided to go.
Shuyin, girl, thank you for coming along with me, I'm glad I got to enjoy this camp with you.
Farhan, (:
Mamat, I'm so glad I made friends with you, thank you farhan, good luck for your SPM, yeah?
Black Mamba, we've got the spirit. Thank you guys for making this camp awesome.
I'll remember watching shooting stars (!!) and looking at the moon and trying to play matchmaker (haha mamat) and enjoying Qi Gong. And cleaning a beach and playing with crabs (haha Han Qiang) and acting and generally acting silly and gay (haha Roy) and making new friends and making straw bridges (haha Meneka and Qian Yun) and all the laughter (haha Raga and Ben and Andrew).

My Chemical Romance Concert: 11th December
Best day of my life.
Actually meeting and greeting them, actually hugging them and speaking to them. And realising that OH HEY THEY REALLY ARE REAL. And Frank is really that cute, no actually, CUTER. Looks and personality wise. And officially the only person who says 'oh cool' more than me.
If loving you guys makes me a teenie, makes me stupid, makes me fucking emo, makes me stupid. Then I am all of the above. Because over this year, you guys have become more than a band to me, you guys have become my heroes. Not in the you-just-saved-me-from-imminent-doom heroes or yatta-i-just-stopped-time heroes, but heroes in everyway that matters to me. You guys gave me words, you guys gave me happiness, you guys gave me Ros and Nabilah and Jessie and Hayley and Blue and Aliss and INO. And for that, you have made my life amazing.

Finding God and Jesus Christ.
Dear Lord,
you have helped me survive through this year, and my O levels. And to understand myself better. Thank you for saving me.

Finding INO and Poetry,
not only did I discover my passion for writing, I discovered friends who have the same passion as me. kick ass gorgeous friends who are brilliant-er at writing than me and who love me just a little less than I love them. xD

Besides all that, the music this year has been phenomenal. xD
Paramore, Cobra Starship, Anberlin, Copeland, Midtown(yes i know i am very late in finding you but still.), The Cab, MCR, FOB, THS, TAI, hell, the whole FBR, PlayRadioPlay!, The Rocket Summer, I'm tired of listing all this already. xD
That's less than (jake) half of my list of music that has helped me through '07.

And of course, the BIG O's. I cannot believe I am done with them, done, finite, zip. I am no longer in secondary school. Wow. I am sixteen, wower. I am still as immature as ever. Yayy.

2007 has been a year full of crying, stressing over O's, mugging, killing my brain cells and knuckles and my pinky finger, nearly losing several limbs in moshpits, finding love, finding friends, finding more than friends, finding heroes, finding happiness, life, excitement, a reason to BE, finding words, being frustrated, being pathetic, being brave, being in love, being out of love, being me. And all the books (Chuck Palaniuk, I love you. Even if Diary is a total mind-fuck.) and movies and CONCERTS and music.

2007 has been amazing.

Thank you to everyone I've made friends with in 2007, everyone who's stayed friends with me (yes, xina, you rule -grovel at your awesomeness.), everyone who has generally made me so happy this year and everyone who has tolerated me. xD

Here's hoping next year will be even better, I know the music will be (P!ATD, THS, The Cab.) RYLArians, I'll see you in december. Hugs and Kisses everyone.

With so much love you can't stand it,
Jane Lee. <3

GOODBYE 2007, THANK YOU.

2007-03-09T21:34:00.000+08:00

Just for the pure heck of it. (and because i'm bored.)

Congratulations Mr. and Mrs. Michael James Way.

:D
you two give me hope in true love.

2007-03-07T22:40:00.000+08:00

P.S: Fuck you.

2007-03-02T23:03:00.000+08:00

I'M FALLING OUT IN 19 HOURS.

Translucent Anti-Hope.

2007-02-27T20:18:00.000+08:00

"It's ok, just let it all out."

Just a few drops of colourless grief
is said to be able to achieve
a much needed temporary sense of relief.

"Go on, it helps, trust me."

Shaking your shoulders silently
is said to cover up the puddle of self-pity
you so desperately want to wallow in.

"Just look on the bright side."

Don't you know? The silver lining is just a myth
to ease young children's minds with.
There has never been any silver in gray clouds.

Oh so many sympathetic faces staring stupidly at me.
It seems my tear-stained cheeks are quite a sight to see.

So if my puffy cheeks and red-rimmed eyes
don't look too obscene.
Then line up and pay five cents
to see the 'Misery-Queen.'

In the above lines,
sorrowful subtext and sarcasm is implied.
Because it's painfully obvious
that whoever said 'crying helps' lied.

___________________________________________

Yet another poem inspired by yet another one of those days.

2007-02-10T18:12:00.000+08:00

Today it's the "This is how things are meant to be" vs the "This is how I want things to go".

I am a monster.
I am a monster.
I am a monster.
I am a monster.
hate me.
destroy me.

2007-02-07T18:27:00.000+08:00

My brain is screaming, "ADDICT."
My heart just isn't listening.

See, he tastes like you, only sweeter.

2007-02-03T17:08:00.000+08:00

Ah, new blogskin. Finally.

Ta-da.

So blank. (yes.)
So imperfect. (yes.)
How plain. (why, yes.)

Oh, so fitting. (why, thank you.)

:D

2007-01-28T17:58:00.000+08:00

So, once again I am sick. Feverish, congested chest, stomach aches, nausea, all that jazz. Which sucks, cause I've been spending the last few days sleeping it off, and I haven't studied. At all. And I have two tests tomorrow. So either, I fail the tests or skip school. Because, honestly, I am still sick either ways.

On another note, I think the Jurong west library is freaking insane. Because I finally found Invisble Monsters yesterday, uh-huh, and I read a chapter there, trying to wait out the rain, but the fever and cold was making my eyes unfocused. So I thought, meh, I'll just go lie down in one of them comfy chairs. And like less that 2 minutes later, this guard guy comes up to me and says, "No sleeping in the library."

What the fuck? No, seriously, what the fuck? No sleeping in the library?!

So then, I walked through the rain, cause it didn't show signs of stopping anytime soon. And I couldn't even sleep the time away in the library. I'm quite positive that my condition got worse through walking in the rain, despite the fact that I was covered from head to toe. It was like, converse originals, knee socks, jeans, shirt, hoodie-with the hood up. I didn't even get wet, but I got so cold my teeth were literally chattering.

I don't want to go to school tomorrow. I'm not prepared for my tests.

And really, I'm still thinking, who the heck came up with such a ridiculous rule. No sleeping in the library?!

2007-01-25T22:04:00.000+08:00

I'm just off a lost cause a long shot, don't even take this bet.

I'm really getting sick of this HSM template. Yeah sure, I'll probably fall in love with it again when HSM2 releases. But for now it's really too preppy-girly for me.

No, I'm not in a hide-in-the-corner-carving-your-name-into-my-wrists phase. Never. I just want something a little more....dark. Meh, not any thing proclaiming the modern-stereotypical-emo teenager blogskin. Maybe just like, TBP in one corner, that should be nice. I just have to figure out my HTML codes again, it's been almost a year since I did up this HSM skin.

How sad is it to be blogging about your blog?

Anyways, my Ryden -giggle- has almost been started. Sad, I can never write a multi-chap. I think my abandoned HSM-fic serves as proof for that.

School, is, well, school. Boring and hectic all at once. Just the whole stupid thing of, oh if you forget to bring your textbook or fail a test, obviously you have some emotional issues. So we will save you through counselling. And then if you still seem to have those issues, what else should we do but call your parents?

Yes, that is also why we are sending you for day-long motivational talks. And devoting an hour every week to teach you all de-stressing techniques. So that when we hound your asses for perfection you won't be too stressed over it.[/rant]

Choir, is going as good as it can. Our uniform is yellow. One piece, silky and yellow. I haven't seen it yet, so, as horrendous as it sounds, I'll give it the benefit of the doubt for now, eh?

I should be going nappy-poo to beddy-bye land. So I'll catch y'all on the flip side.

♥

2007-01-21T00:54:00.000+08:00

ohmygodohmygodohmygodohmygod. OH MY GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

THIS MEANS WAR IS FINALLY UPDATED. AFTER LIKE, 6 MONTHS. IT'S FINALLY UPDATED. FINALLY. FINAL-FUCKING-LY!

I'm such a book worm that CAPS LOCK CANNOT FULLY EXPRESS MY FANGIRLY JOY.

JECONAIS, I LOVE YOU. LIKE, SRSLY, MARRY ME.

-janey.

today;today.

2007-01-18T21:48:00.000+08:00

Today is another one of those days where 'What the Fuck?' becomes an extremely over-used phrase.

kiss kiss.

2007-01-10T19:39:00.000+08:00

so, i was wondering, if anyone was even, y'know reading this damn public journal.

is anyone interested in taking a trip to Far East Plaza at, oh say, next next week?

sms me or something. ♥

i think the air might be broken,
cause it sure as hell ain't workin'.

--oh YAY it's JANE!

2007-01-08T19:13:00.000+08:00

so after my [s]slight[/s] panic/axiety attack last night, I figured I should do something to cheer melittleself up.

venting! aha.

so i got my lit hw done, and fried a few braincells in the process, staying up till 3 am to get it all done. then mrs ang says the FINAL deadline is on friday. typical, isn't it?

mr lee kok leong is hilarious. like roftlmfaoXDD hilarious, I'm hoping this means maths will never be boring, he's a pretty damn good teacher too.

ms J of course, started her lesson of with a lecture...scolding. whatever. i figured someone had to do that sooner or later.

i'm finally able to check out some of the stuff on my wishlist. :D

catch ya on the flip side;
jane.

help.

2007-01-07T21:06:00.000+08:00

in all complete honesty, i don't really have anything to say right now. but i needed to vent. you know that overwhelming feeling you have? when the panic just builds up in you, i feel like i'm drowning now, just minus the water. the works, the pain in my chest each time i'm gasping for air. my eyes are aching, my head is swarming, and my stomach. that's a mini tornado going through it right about now. and i'm pretty sure it's not just the sour sweets.

it's the stress of this entire year. how sad is it? the stress of this entire year is hitting me now, in the second week of school. it's gonna be tough, and i'll be honest with you. i'm fucking scared. i'm scared shitless right now. i'm about this close to the edge, and i feel like i'm about to fall over this non-existant railing. fear? i'm not too sure i could call it that. but yes, i'm scared. i said that already right?

so, yeah, maybe i'm being melodramtic. but you should know, that's just who i am. i worry too much. i do nothing about it. and i have my little anxiety attack.

i'm having one right now.

and my homework.

god, when will i ever learn? two months. two whole fucking months to do it and i'm trying to rush it now. i need to get this done.

and i need to calm the hell down. and i need a sedative.

cause my hands are shaking.

and i can't think straight.

and every fucking breath is shaky.

i'd like it for someone to tell me where i'll be going. i don't like surprises.

i don't like change.

and i'm developing a peter pan complex.

my one-way ticket to neverland is ready.

i'd like to leave now.

PWP; hell no.

2006-12-19T23:31:00.000+08:00

All I have to say is: Ohmygosh, ohmygosh, ohmygosh, ohmygosh.

Yes, why how eloquent you are, Jane.

Leave it to me to try to be all enigmatic, try to figure out what I'm gushing about, dahlings.

--The beginning of the rest of our lives. Together.

PS: yes, I love cliches. They make my heart smile.

That time of year again.

2006-12-19T19:00:00.000+08:00

Ah, another year older, another year (hopefully) wiser.

Too bad I didn't get some miraculous growth spurt or something, hehe.

Thank you all for the gifts and well-wishes, I'm honestly touched.

♥

2006-12-17T21:33:00.000+08:00

Like all hopeless romantics, he arrived at the doorstep, a single red rose clutched to his chest.

Fingers shaking, he reached up to ring the doorbell...

Standing before him was an angel.

An angel with eyeliner, a black tee and a pair of tight jeans.

His angel. Yes, he was a hopeless romantic at heart.

But he knew, hopeless romantics made his angel smile.

And his angel's smile felt like Christmas had come early.

--Sappy love songs and gentle snowflakes,
red and white roses and sleeping beside the fireplace.

♥

2006-12-13T01:28:00.000+08:00

If I may be so bold. Ahem.
---------------------------

Dearest Santa,

I think I have been a fairly good girl this year, if not, forgive me, and I will behave more next year.

I would really like to have:

1.The Black Parade messenger bag.
2.Life On the Murder Scene dvd.
3.The Black Parade/My Chemical Romance CDs (anything to do with it)
4.A Nano case(but my bff Xina has said she'll be getting that for me.)
5.A new wallet.
6.Dawson's Creek DVD
7.One Tree Hill DVD
8.A new bagpack for school.
9.A really cool hoodie.
10.Any of the merchandise on MCR's online store.
11.Drake Bell's CD, It's Only Time.

But most of all, Mr. Claus, I would truly, really want to have a one Michael James Way.

Yours hopefully,
Merissa Jane Lee Hui Yi

--

PS: My birthday will be coming soon.

PPS: A simple card showing you care will do just fine.

2006-12-13T01:18:00.000+08:00

My Chemical Romance will kill me one day. I think I had a heart attack from watching THE VIDEO OF FAMOUS LAST WORDS.

Aye. It is out. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=phB1LnAHm4M -hyperventilates-

Morning. Sleepy. Incoherent babbling rules.

2006-12-12T02:21:00.000+08:00

So, seeing as it is 2 in the morning, this post will probably not make much sense and will be grammatically incorrect. But who cares?

I'm back from bangkok!!!!!!!!

-crickets-

ok, frankly, kinda sad hardly anybody noticed I was gone, but I'll sob about that in my emo corner later on.

On to the good news, and awesomely good news.

So this holiday job I got, apparennnnnnntly, the pay is not, in fact, 300 bucks.

IT'S 500 BUCKS.

5OO-FREAKING BUCKS.

-squeals-

Plus, I'll be working with my bffffffffffffffffffffff Xina for 10 straight days, pity I'll be working on me (ahem..19th DEC) birthday and on Xmas though.

and on to the awesomemor news, CHANNEL 5 WILL START SHOWING SUPERNATURAL EVERY FRIDAY.

whiiiich means, weekly dosage of Jensen-too-bloody-hot-to-be-real-Ackles! Yay!

And since, that's all the fangirl squeal I have left in me, I will now end this post with an incredibly irritatingly typed sentence but still very very true.

MiKEy WaYYYYY IsH De HAwt3ST BaSissst EvA!!!!!!!!!!!!1111111111111111

peaceout.
Jane [Mrs Wish-I-Was-Married-To-Mikey-Way] Lee :D

2006-11-29T22:49:00.000+08:00

Ok, so, today was...odd, for lack of a better word.

As usual when all the madness is happening I can't wait to run home and rant all about it here, but when I actually do get home, I get too caught up in my obsessions to blog.

..and the fact that I'm incredibly lazy.

So, as a personal note to myself, START FINISHING HW AND LW, BEFORE END OF HOLIDAYS.

----

Alllso.

SEE YA LATER, SINGAPORE.

Little me will be travelling to bangkok, for 10 days.

10 days.

10 fxcking days without internet access.

Eh, at least I'll have my INano with me, please let that be enough.

Sooo, if I haven't died from internet-withdrawal yet, I will see y'all soon. Be back on the 9th, my pretties.

Pip pip, tata, cherrio, love,
Jane.

2006-11-27T19:55:00.000+08:00

I officially hate HotTopic.

Any rich person willing to buy this for my birthday?

http://cgi.ebay.com/ws/eBayISAPI.dll?ViewItem&item=260057651681

or this?

http://www.hottopic.com/hottopic/store/product.jsp?FOLDER%3C%3Efolder_id=2534374302024065&PRODUCT%3C%3Eprd_id=845524442149574

2006-11-24T21:34:00.000+08:00

Oh man, I can't believe that Charmed is actually over.

Series finale, finete, over.

I cried at the end.
So happy to finally see Chris again, I'm so happy that he made it, and Wyatt is good and all. Phoebe finally got married and stayed married. And, Piper, I love her the most. Paige too, of course.

Can't believe it's finally over, didn't catch the last 2 seasons, but the ending was spectacular. Writing/reading their thoughts, and showing all the pictures. It really tugged at my heartstrings.

It's only.

2006-11-17T23:21:00.000+08:00

It's only the ones who aren't free, who can't get what we're getting.

It's only the ones who aren't there, who can't see what we're seeing.

It's only the ones who don't care, who can't feel what we're feeling.

It's only the one who's with me, who knows what I'm saying.

It's the holidays, no?

2006-11-09T21:10:00.000+08:00

Dear students,

There are 2 homework tasks you need to complete during this holiday.

Task 1: You are to complete the End of Year Specimen Paper 2 found in your Sec 3 E Maths textbook. Submit your work to your respective E Maths rep by 10th November, Friday.

Task 2: You will be given Task 2 during the Sec 3 Academic Programme, so keep a lookout for it.

Have a great vacation ahead.

And how do you suppose we do that?

unfairunfairunfair

2006-11-07T15:07:00.000+08:00

UNFAIR

unfair, unfair unfairrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

-runs to emo corner and cries-

My mom met the Singapore Idols.

......wha...

They were all there at her workplace for some charity event. She spoke with Hady and Paul. She said Paul's super cute, Hady's handsome, and Gayle is super pretty.

(Sorry Christopher and Jill and Hanisah, if I had known earlier I would have made sure my mom got their autographs for you guys.)

BUT THAT MADE ME SO FREAKING SAD.

SHE MET THEM! SHE MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEETTTTTTTTTTTTTTT THEM. Joakim wasn't there(WHY?!), but she met the rest of them.

...she said she only knew of their visit last minute or else she could have brought me along.

..........WHAT!?

-cries-

The suffering must stop.

2006-11-03T14:15:00.000+08:00

The innocent victims of Internet child abuse cannot speak for themselves.

But you can.

With your help, we can eradicate this evil trade.

We do not need your money.
We need you to light a candle of support <http://www.lightamillioncandles.com>.

We're aiming to light at least One Million Candles by December 31, 2006.

This petition will be used to encourage governments, politicians, financial institutions, payment organisations, Internet service providers, technology companies and law enforcement agencies to eradicate the commercial viability of online child abuse.They have the power to work together.

You have the power to get them to take action. Please light your candle at lightamillioncandles.com <http://www.lightamillioncandles.com> or send an email of support to light@lightamillioncandles.com. Together, we can destroy the commercial viability of Internet child abuse sites that are destroying the lives of innocent children.

Kindly inform your friends, relatives and work colleagues so that they can light a candle too.

----------------

It only takes a minute to help someone.

I was watching Oprah today, she was with Holocaust survivor Elie Wiesel. They were walking through what used to be one of the largest concentration camps, now one of the largest cemetries.

It was shocking. It made me cry and it made me think.

So many innocent people who died so many children who died so many people who suffered.

Here are some things that he said,

The death of one child makes no sense. The death of millions, what sense could that make?

For every just person who dies, God sheds 2 tears. How many tears were shed for all those innocent, just, beautiful people who died?

How many Nobel Prize winners died at the age of 1, or 2. One of them could have grown up to find a cure for cancer, a cure for AIDS.

To those who lost their lives,
We remember.

To those who survived,
We hear you.

To the next generation,We must never forget.

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Help someone.

In any way you can.

There's one simple way now, and that is to light a candle.

I've lit one candle already.

There are millions of ways where you can help millions of people.

-Jane

yeah, i did have nothing better to do.

2006-10-25T15:58:00.000+08:00

Ok, editing my previous post..Ryan Ross is 20, not 17. Heh, still the most insightful guy I know.

and the cutest.

most talented.

LiKE OmG!!!!!!!!1111!!!!!!

...

Enough about that. Well, actually, no, I have no idea why I decided to blog. Cause I've got nothing interesting to say.

...
..
.

*crikets criketing*

Erm....

Ah!

I really wanna change a blogskin. Let's make it darker, shall we? More personal, less teeniebopper-i-am-so-happy-giggle-ish.

Ok, might as well start a greedy wishlist here.

1) I really really want to resume my guitar lessons. (I'll be more dedicated this time...i swear!)
2) ....can I not go for emaths tuition, please! -shudder-
3) Money, hey, you can't blame me, who doesn't want that?
4) New bag, not a sling one, though.
5) New wallet, PLEASE!
6) Ryan Ross. (I told you it was a greedy wishlist)

Yep, hehe, that should sum most of it up.

I think I might have forgotten some, but, meh, I can continue on another page.

Oh, since you asked, Chris ROX!

^there, got your name, like you wanted.

extremelyboredoutofmywitsandfantasizingaboutryanross,
jjjjjane.

hiatus-shmhiatus.

2006-10-23T16:18:00.000+08:00

So, since my totally awesome brother(Christopher) can't bear to not be able to read my blog, this post is dedicated to him.

Christopher you rock, man! And pebbles!

Ok, so, many things have been going on in my life. BTW, the previous post? That was just a joke at Chris. Hehe...he.

Erm let's see. I've made an early resolution to start figuring myself out. and I'll try to not care of other people's views on me. I'll do it my way. whatever that way may be. Like Ryan Ross says, "have an opinion" I won't care what those naysayers or critical people have to say, i'll be my own influence.

Speaking of Ryan Ross, I am falling (hardly) in love with Panic! at the disco. I know, I know, you probably think I'm just jumping on to the bandwagon and falling in love with their songs. But, honestly, I really do like them. Particularly RYAN ROSS. because he's the most insightful 17-year-old I know, and amazingly talented with freakishly good taste.

Another obsession of mine, Death Note(OMGSH, JANE LOVES AN ANIME?!?!). Yes, I am in love with a fictional character called L. Or Ryuuzaki, whatever. He's just another lovable weirdo who loves anything with sugar in it. (wayyy cute)! i watched the movie with leonie last friday and I loved it. LOVED IT. Still LOVE it.

something hilarious happened at the cinema too. this guy infront of us, probably hates horror movies or something. he was so amusing. the moment the Grudge 2's trailer came out, he was like crouching and hiding his face and practically screaming. "Is it over? Don't look, later something scary will pop out!" LMAO. Leonie and I just couldn't stop laughing.

yep, that's about pretty much the highlight of my week.

One last thing. This is in caps lock so don't mind the 'loudness'. AFTER SO FREAKING LONG, I FINALLY GOT MY MOM TO AGREE TO GETTING ME CABLE TV! WOO-FREAKING-HOOOO! Plus, i think it was mostly due to the fact that I scored the top of my class.

Heads up people!

2006-10-18T15:14:00.000+08:00

Eh! Tell euu all arh, i will b puttin miie blogg on a short hiatus.

ttyl,
Jane!!!!!!!!!!!!!1111!!!!!!!!eleven!!

Boo! Missed me?

2006-10-16T19:39:00.000+08:00

Exams are over. Yay.
You'd think I'd be more excited, wouldn't you?

...Well, ok, actually I am. But seeing as our results will be revealed tomorrow, majority of that excitement has been replaced with apprehension. and anxiety. heaps and heaps of it.

Since I'm too lazy to blog about the past few days, I'll give you the cliffnotes version.

1) Shenn's been bugging me to update, sort of.
2) Went out with Xina and bought her PhuaChuKang slippers.
3) Saw the idols, some of them at least.
4) Been trying to learn some stuff with my PaintShopPro.
5) Written a short story.
6) Started my exercise regime.
7) Finished reading "Tell It To Naomi"
8) Finally borrowed "The Lovely Bones"
9) Panicked over Lucas' Birthday Project.
10) ...

Ok, so there's no 10, not that I can remember it anyway. Sooo...tomorrow gonna get my results, squeal and regret. Then, I'ma gonna rack my brains to think of something touching to give to Lucas for his birthday. The deadline's in a week. So I really really really reallyreallyreally need to hurry.

Wish me luck! For the exams and the Birthday gift.

anxiously waiting for tomorrow,
Jane

2006-10-09T12:29:00.000+08:00

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I hate maths. E, actually. I hate Emaths. Hate. Intensely dislike. Strongly detest. LOATHE. Hate. Extremely despise. Fugly hatred. HATE. E-freaking-Maths.

X.X

4 more yucky, loathesome, FUGLY papers.

I am so excited.

2006-10-07T15:50:00.000+08:00

It's been a while hasn't it?

School and exam stuff have been bugging me. Lost a few thousand hours of sleep over studying. The bulk of humanities papers are over, thank God for that. So, I'm trying to study for Physics, Chem, E&Amaths and Literature-with little luck. My discpline level is almost non-existant. -rolls eyes-

On another note, I've fallen in love with 4 new things, that is, 2 new shows and 2 hot actors. Go me. 'Supernatural' and 'Jack and Bobby', and their leading men, Jensen Ackles and Matt Long. <3

The highlight of my week. My mom's graduation! She's graduated with a Bachelor of Commerce. I'm so proud for her. And though, I had a panic attack cause I lost 4 hours of my history-study time, I am so glad I went. Cause I got a family photo taken, Mom, Dad, Bro and I. -beams-
The photographer was looking at us, and asked my mom, "Family?"
and my mom said, "yes."

Yeah, that felt really good.

Also, I saw Mathilda D'Silva there, Bachelor of Arts with honours. Who knew? Beauty, talent and brains. I envy her.

Nothing much to say that I can remember. Just trying to blog in standard english for Christopher, since he's been bugging me for hours on end. Going to try to cram some Physics and Chem(and hopefully Maths) into my brain now. Wish me luck!

5 down, 6 to go.

Singapore Idol, Who?! HADY!!!!!!

2006-09-25T22:30:00.000+08:00

Oh, man, I am so so so so tired, I'm panting cause I was dancing, and jumping up and down and running from one end of my house to the other. While listening to Singapore Idol. Oh man, the top 10 finalist medley was soooooooooooooooooooo nice! Norman, oh wow, his voice has improved loads! His version of 'Angel' was so amazing. I was singing along to all of them, execpt for Emilee, Rahimah and Jay's cause I had no idea what they were singing.

And might I add, JOAKIM! Oh man, he definetly showed off his love for running, dancing AND singing! He was like going from this end of the stage to the other in a second. AWESOME.

And Paul's, WHOOOO!

I'm so high right now. I'm high on adrenaline. WHHHHOOOOOOOOO-HOOOOOOO!

When Rahimah Rahim(the older more famous one) was singing, and she sang, 'You feel like heaven to touch', and she held on to Joakim's hand. OH MAN, I was like in stiches. And at the end when Paul kissed Norman's hand! Haha, I wish I could be a part of that Idol-family. So much fun!

Ok, I can't think coherently. So, I'll end my post with a few words.

HADY MIRZA!

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HADY =D

2006-09-04T17:52:00.000+08:00

Just thought I'd come in and say that the cake was good. Tasty, even.

Vanilla Butter Cake. =D

Not much happened, I pretty much wasted away my monday. I watched about 5 episodes of CSI. And I missed the morning interview with Joakim. By a few minutes. =(

And another event, Steve Irwin the Corcodile Hunter passed away. So sad..I hope his wife and kids will be okay. He got stabbed in the heart by a stingray. I always thought that he'd get hurt seriously or fatally by a snake or crocodile. Turns out it was a Stingray that killed him. At least, he died doing what he loved, I suppose. May he rest in peace.

Quote of the day..just a funny conversation with my brother.

"I know of some guys who'd do that to..maybe Stefanie Sun. Or Mariah Carey"-Me
"Ewww..Mariah Carey!? She's so old. She's practically half-dead."-Brother

Culinary Challenged

2006-09-02T16:22:00.000+08:00

Right, I'll post the pictures later.

I'm currently feeling like a failure right now, sore loser, to be exact.

Y'know I really don't get it. It's like the evil cooking gene didn't like how I looked or something. I mean, my dad can whip up stuff like double-boiled soup and roast beef. My mom can cook cater-worthy food, which people would pay to eat. And my brother is on his way to becoming a gourmet chef. And me, the best thing I can cook is Instant noodles.

..and I've messed even THAT up before.

So, I though, I did pretty well in Home Ec, especially when it came to baking, and it seemed like I knew a lot about baking than my family did.

So, my mom and I went to bake. And, well.

I mucked it up. It's sitting in the oven now, sugar unmelted and all. It probably won't even rise. And my mom spent the whole time while I was trying to make it work going, "Here, let me do it.", "You know why you shouldn't have done that?", "See, ah, nevermind, we can salvage this."

I think she didn't know that I was trying to prove something to her. I don't know what, mayhaps prove that I can excel in one aspect of cooking.

But now I seem to think that the best thing I can do is clean.

Ack.

I'm one of those people who at the moment something goes wrong, that voice in my head will snigger and shout out, "RUN now, before you make yourself seem like even more of a failure."

To think, I thought there was something I could do to impress them.

Maybe, the cooking gene really does hate me.

Evil cooking gene.

I'll just stick to watching them cook and shout out, "Ooo, that smells awesome."

-.-

I'm gonna try baking again, on monday, or tuesday. I don't care, I just want to prove something. I don't know what, I just want to prove it. I must sound like I've lost it or something. I just don't want my brother to laugh at my culinary skills.

I just hope I don't blow the kitchen up.

Oh, boo me.

2006-08-31T22:52:00.000+08:00

Ok, many people have been forcing me to update, haha. So here it is. Short one lah, now very tired.

Firstly, JOAKIM!! The one time I didn't watch it, man, he got out. I just hope he gets to go home and rest. I can't believe I fell asleep. Dang. Saturday must remember!

Secondly, Teachers' Day! Talked to Seng Min on Msn, it's been so long. Didn't go back to Shuqun though, too lazy. The carnival was awesome, but seriously lah, I can't believe they call it a carnival, where's the roller coasters, the ferris wheel, the popcorn and cotton candy?! Hahah, more like, concert and stalls, but still cool. Sat with Shidin, so long never talk to him. I might post some pictures later, haha, the bands were so cool. Especially the teacher one, ahah.

A'ight, talk to you guys soon. I'm so glad it's finally the freaking holidays.

2006-08-16T20:28:00.000+08:00

It's been ages since my last post. Ooo, I miss this blog. *hugs blog*

I think I officially lost it a few days ago, with sleep-deprivation and a splitting headache. I swear I felt some of my neurons frying up the other day. But I'm all better now, I think.

Oh, the advertisements are over, Singapore Idol is back...

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Ken just redeemed himself. I've been having this immense hatred of him these past days. I appreciate his honesty, but I think he's been going overboard these past few weeks. Way overboard. But he's redeemed himself...I hope he stays this way, and doesn't start exxagerating again. But I still think he was slamming people, just a bit more subtle this time. He still angers me abit though. But I want that KLAUS hoodie of his. Hahaha.

Jasmine, surprisingly, did fairly well, if I have to say something about it, I just wanna say that I hated that pink pants.

And I'm dying to see Joakim smile. He looks so down, it's depressing. "Hais" I hope he cheers up, some people are just so un-civilised, with those hate-mail things they say to him. Grr-rrrrr.

And, I'm Psychic. Clairvoyant. Whatever. I predicted someone would sing The Anthem by Good Charlotte, and Paul sang it. Haha. I think he made a wise choice not to sing the "Woah-oh-oh" parts.

And Jon, erm, nice eyeliner. XD

Haha, the ending was so cute! With Paul and Joakim doing that shake your body dance thingy. Irrrrrrrrresistable.

Ok, enough about those wacky singers...

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I've been majorly obsessed with folding straws! Straw hearts, straw stars, straw pentograms. Ahh, so preeeeettttyy.

But Sherman has threatened to burn them up if I fold any more of them in class. He's such a kill-joy. *pouts*

Wee-eee-eeel, since I've forgotten what I wanted to say. I'll end my entry here.

ttyl poppets. *squeal*

2006-07-24T22:01:00.000+08:00

"I swear...they...they're trying to kill us!" whimpered the little boy.

"And you've only figured this out now? Won-der-ful."

"They've been brainwashing me all these years! But now, I finally know. They're horrible, they really are!"

"Now now, what happened?"

"Weeee-eee-eeell. It's our napfa week, we just took over our CCAs, our common tests are in a week or so, and they're giving us a load of class tests and our projects are due!"

"Oo. Ouch."

"Not only! My class has like 3 tests on weds. We tried begging them, but they wouldn't show mercy."

"Don't bother trying, they'll never show mercy. What are you going to do?"

"I don't know, really. Nothing good happened to those who tried running away," he shuddered at that thought.

"Good luck then."

"Thank you, we need all the luck we can get."

Ass Seeto

2006-07-19T19:24:00.000+08:00

To all my friends out there, I'm fine, I'm happy, don't worry anymore. I may act like it, but I'm not a child. =)

To the commitee, I love you all so much, and it's ok, I will do my best for this post.

I would also like to apologise to all my friends and foes out there for being a bossy bitch.

Racial harmony day rocks ass.

And to Mr Lam, I'm sorry we didn't study. But I will take your advice and study hard for english. Does that mean I can not care about Chinese? =)

And to a certain person out there who claims to have 'known' me for three years, you don't know me at all. So don't you dare judge me, you haven't earned the right to.

And no, this is not a sucide note, dweebs. I haven't even met Lucas Grabeel yet!

Choir AGM

2006-07-18T17:57:00.000+08:00

I haven't updated in a while, sorry about that. I have wanted to, but was too lazy, I guess.

Today was a very hectic and slightly enjoyable day, you could say. But I'll talk about something which happened a while ago first. Our cluster performance at Zhenghua. I think I have the right to say that for us,

WE ROCKED.

Yeah, I'm proud of choir, we stuck together and sung, the band did well too. It was great minus the beginning of When You Believe when the mike went all sreeeeeeech. We were, once again, crazy in the bus, but we had fun man. Yida was extremely nice to me, cause he-not only-allowed me to use his bag as a pillow, but also laid it out properly for me. How sweet. Teehee.

I recorded our performance, but the first 10 minutes was basically crap, and Yida and I singing the world cup song, Celebrate the Day.

The bus ride home was wacky man, lots of screaming shouting singing, cheering. Extremely fun, we were all drunk. =)

QY and I sang the school song, Shidin did the 'instruments'. Laugh out loud material, if I may say so.

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Ok, back to now. Today, happy thing is, WE WON THE BLOODY DEBATE. OH YEAH! AND ERIK GOT BEST SPEAKER. No surprise about that though, haha.

I stumbled a bit, but damn, it was fun. Word of advice to anyone out there, if you don't want to lose a limb, don't offend Erik and Max. =X

Yeah, Vinod could have spoken a little faster though, hehe. And I will never forget what Joel said, cause I didn't have any time left to talk back. IF YOU DON'T LIKE SEX, WILL YOU WATCH PORN?!

For the record, what I was gonna say back was that, now on the internet, there are things like pop-ups, and like drugs, you try/see it once, and you can be hooked for life. =p

But enough of that, major thing in life now, is our Choir posts. I'ma beat up Haiqal and Tanya. They got my hopes up high, I was told in the morning, first period of the day, that I was the Chairman for Choir. I was confused, but I admit, I was happy about it. Elated. But then, when I asked Eleen, she and Meiqi told me that I wasn't involved in the Leader's Commencement Day, so that left me more confused. And then Ms Seeto saw me during Chinese. That's where she broke my spirits, by outright telling me, "So you actually thought that you were the chairman for Choir?" Is it such a ridiculous thing, if I was? So yeah, I was really confused, frustrated. Pissed off, even.

Then it was time for choir, lots of sad stories, teasing, laughter, and shoe-kissing. =x

Then it was the moment of truth.(Yeah, I know I'm dramatic, you got a problem with that?)

Dun

Dun

Dun

DUN

There were 8 positions. And 11 sec 3s.

The positions were, Chairman, Vice-chairman-cum-discipline-co, Secretary, assistant-secretary, Welfare co and Alto sectional, Sop 1 sectional and Sop 2 sectional.

Before choir started, we pretty much already knew that Daphne was Chairman. So, that rules out my chance, so I hoped to at least be Vice or Secretary.

No, I'm not Vice-chairman.

Nope, guessed wrong again, I'm not Secretary.

Yes, sigh, I'm Assistant-secretary. Which basically is a crap position, because Assistant secretary is pretty much a non-existant thing. I don't ever remember an assistant for an assistant thingy. And I suppose I was dissppointed. I tried to laugh, smile, joke even. But I have to admit that I was sad. I was hoping for more. Since I'm not a council-leader, I was hoping for the chance to be a CCA-leader. Guess that's not gonna happen. Pictures were taken, hugs were given, smiles, singing, and even the Gwee-cheer in front of Ms Seeto. Zixin's the secretary, by the way. So I'm under her, if you know what I mean. Maha made me feel better. But I do wonder though, how they came up with the decision. I really feel like beating Haiqal up, and Charmaine. For having the bet with Rebecca on who would be the chairman. Why I'm angry? Cause she betted AGAINST me. I was a bit sad on my way home, and I teared a little in the lift. Just a little. You know that heat you feel at the back of your eyelids when you sigh deeply? Yeah, that little.

I'm gonna miss them alot, and yeah, I suppose we all have to look on the brighter side of things. Of course, you could just say that I'm in denial.

But, I'm gonna be Ok with this. I mean, no matter what, we're all still choirians, we'll be a part of Choir no matter what. And that's all that matters.

Right?

2006-07-08T20:27:00.000+08:00

I am pretentious.

I am fake.

Before you think I am writing a poem, let me tell you what this is. Lately, I've been thinking-more often than usual- and these are my thoughts.

I am self-concious.

I care too much about what people think about me.

I lack self-confidence.

I do not follow my goals.

I am living in my day-dreams.

Most people don't know who I really am, because I don't know it myself.

I am trying to understand myself more, but I've realised that that would take more than just one night.

But these are a few things I have done.

I have gotten a new hair-cut, which I am starting to like. This is because I am trying to be different, to experiment, you could say. I don't know if who I really am, is what I'm trying to be now. As cliche as that sounds, it's true. Currently, I am what one would call, a rock music loving teeny bopper book worm nerd. Long title, but that's how I would describe myself. If you were to ask some of my new classmates who I am, the conversation would probably be like this.

"So, you know that girl, Jane?"

"Yea."

"What do you think of her?"

"I guess she's ok, I don't really talk to her. She's always reading in class. But ah, I tell you, her results are good."

No, I'm not bragging or boasting. Far from it. The reason why I typed that, is because that's what my classmates see me as. Jane, that girl with two names who was top in level last year. Jane, that girl who is pro in english. Jane, that girl who I copy homework from.

And I am sick of being that Jane, the one people only talk to about studies.

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I am usually looking down when I walk. People must think I am obsessed with my torn and tattered shoes. I am obsessed with tying shoe laces though, maybe it's because I'm always staring at them.

I'm usually the girl stuck in the back, one would say. I'm not the center of attention. I don't get much attention. Maybe if I were famous, I would. But then, I'd probably get too much attention.

It's funny how writing down your thoughts makes you think even more. Or maybe it's just me, I think too much.

Life's just complicated, I guess.

And there's no solution or answer to life, because life's too complicated to be a question.

2006-07-06T21:33:00.000+08:00

Wow, it's been a while since I've blogged here.

Life's been pretty whacked up lately, the holidays, have-unfortunately-ended, so school's up again. I've been writing more poetry and sappy love songs. And I've been trying-emphasis on trying-to get myself to start some serious studying. And to work out more, get fit. Kinda bummed out that I didn't get to do what I wanted to during the holidays, i.e work out, get a haircut, buy some new clothes and a new bagpack, and study...i guess. But meh, I'll try to get those done soon. NAPFA's coming soon, so that's a bummer, I haven't taken it in like, what? 2, 3 years? Apparently my medical certificate certifying that I am exempted from NAPFA because I can't take the 2.4 has 'expired', or so they tell me. And seeing as, I'm not visiting Dr. Lee anytime soon, it looks like I have no choice but to go for the NAPFA, which is, already a confirmed fail for me. Still got quite a few unfinished projects and that whole debate thingymajig coming up, so yeah, probably gonna be quite busy. Stuff at the forum has been pretty uneventful, Lucas is probably still in Utah filming HalloweenTown 4.

On another note, I'm crushing on this one particular boy, who is quite an jerk. A cute jerk, though. No idea why I like him, cause I know the feeling's not mutual, but, meh, rampaging hormones I guess. There's another crush that's gonna end up getting crushed.

Feels good to be back in the whiny-rant-filled-bloggin' mode.

See you when life's less hectic.

OhEmGee

2006-06-13T21:25:00.000+08:00

Ohemgee. I'm so haaaaaaaaapy! 4, baby! FOUR. Yipeekayay!

-Haha, I have a feeling no one has a clue as to what I just typed.

fanfiction

2006-06-11T11:23:00.000+08:00

Boo. How can a number of about 100 people read a story, and never leave to type one measly review. Grr. I mean it's like 1 person liked it and put it under fave stories. 2 people aprreciated it enough to put it under story alert. BUT NO ONE BOTHERED TO REVIEW?! I mean, how's an author to know how to improve if no one reviews.

Anyway, enough ranting.

My mom fractured her ankle so I'm home looking after her. Poor thing, she's in a cast and all. My brother is so insensitive.

Councillors

2006-06-08T22:10:00.000+08:00

I've already posted today, but I read an email which really just made me want to say something. All the councillors of the better batch, that's the 24th by the way, will know what I'm talking about. 24 keys 24 hearts, no more no less. I presume that is the motto of the 24th batch. Personally, I admit that I am a little hurt, cause I know that I am no longer part of that fun loving group. But what's done is done, and I don't want to regret anymore. So I have to say this, I'm sure that I can speak for everyone who has quit that we all dislike the -ahem- 23rd batch. With good reason, of course. All the demoralization ain't for anything good, they say it's for us to be more mentally strong, right? Well personally my say on that is that the whole thing is one big piece of fucking bullshit. I hate to curse, but in this case, it's every bit worth it. Being a student leader had always, no HAS always been a goal of mine, and I was elated when I got in. But I never thought of how different it really was. Have we actually done anything to help the students? Anything really changing? Besides being representatives?

Mental and Physical punishment has it's purposes, that I agree with. But they should be given out with reason. With REASON. And for the heck of it, I still have no idea what the hell that reason is. So I say this, I miss being a councillor only because I miss hanging out with my batchmates. But the camps and meetings are crap. Complete and Utterly ridiculous crap. Confiscation of ties and tie-pins, is also, you guessed it, crap. Nothing but it. They say that the 24th batch let them down, that they didn't reach they're requirements. Well I say that they're requirements are fucking sky-high. Requirements are meant to be reachable, for people to aquire. But at this rate, JSS Student Council is going to have a hard time staying on. For the people who are still in it, and this is refering to the 24th batch, I applaud you, for being able to withstand they're nonsansical rules and actions. Obviously, I was not strong enough, and I do regret that. But I will not stand for whatever ridiculous thing they are going to do next. I hope that the 24th batch will be able to clear up all the mess, and I wish you guys the best of luck. And Qing Quan, whatever it is that you decide, just make sure you don't regret it. That's basically all that I needed to get out of my system. The 23rd batch, I think that as students and friends you guys are quite an awesome group, but I think that the whole councillor system you guys are holding is a bit off the end, missing a few screws, and way over the top.

With that said, I rest my case with this councillor thing. I will probably still have future rantings, though. Oh and by the way, I can't believe Gayle got out.

Random

2006-06-08T17:36:00.000+08:00

I just finish reading an article, and I dunno. I sort of had a thought. If someone can write a christian-themed fantasy book like The Chronicles of Narnia, then who's to say that stuff like Harry Potter is evil..and that we shouldn't read it? I mean I completely understand where they're coming from and I am dead against The DaVinci Code but honestly, I don't see what's wrong with Harry Potter and other magical-themed book. I mean the bulk of us, Christians do not go around taking a piece of stick and starting a cult or anything.

I'm so effing frustrated with FFnet. I finally posted my one-shot but it is so confusing to read. Granted, that is partly my fault..but still. Like what it did to my POTF story, it erased like all my divisor lines. Annoying. I'm working on a Ryan fic, but I seem to have lost my inspiration, stupid writer's block. Honestly though, I really want to write this. I hope it goes well. On the BRIGHT side, sodoto has finally updated 'Neurotic', after like half a year? And to think, i gave up on that story, thank G-d she didn't give up on it. It's nearing the end, and she killed off Paul but it's still looking good. Can't wait for the next chapter, apparently she's updating daily.

Ashtma attack

2006-06-04T22:50:00.000+08:00

So the job with the kids was good, i'll probably blog about it some other day and post some piccys.

I think I might have been reading Aarthi and Shawn's blog too much too long. All my daydreams have usually been about like fame and handsome guys and other stupid teengirls stuff. But I sorta had a daydream of my funeral last night. I mean, who has a daydream of your own funeral!? It was like black dresses and all and it totally freaked me out, like total daynightmare.
Yeah, and working with the kids meant playing and chasing them day in day out. And chasing meant running, and running. And for those who know me long enough, running and me=BAD. I mean, i should have known better I guess, but I didn't.

So like freakishly enough, after the stupid 'workout' I had an asthmathic attack. It's been ages since I had one and I thought I've been over it. I guess not, cause it hurt. At least, this time, we didn't need to go to the hospital or anything cause i already had the nebulizer at home. I hate it how without that machine and those tubes of medicine I could possibly not breathe. I hate it how people are like complaining about running, cause even though I do so too. I would love to run, i would love to have the stamina to compete in races. I would love to be able to run and do everthing in camps. So, maybe part of me is lazy cause there are treatments and swimming, i guess, can help. But i dunno, i guess. I'm just gonna rest and hopefully I won't wake up in the middle of the night gasping for breath, I hate being this weak. I need to start a healthy lifestyle, go work out, actually take my meds regularly, the stuff my parents and doctor have been urging me to do. Hopefully one day my asthma condition won't be 'chronic' anymore.

So for those who bother to know, if I'm not on these days/miss out on meetings/do not go to school, you'll know why.

Sigh.

2006-05-23T23:19:00.000+08:00

What do you do when you're caught in the middle?

I mean, both of them are my parents...I don't want to choose sides.
So, I had my dental appointment today, both mom and dad went, fairly smooth journey, I mean, there was no quarreling and in fact I was kinda happy to have both of them in the same car. So there was the whole way-too-perky-sounds-like-he's-on-drugs dentist, and I took an X-ray which reminded me of the movie Artificial Intelligence.

They were sort of reprimanding me in the lift about my maths; I sorta failed my Emaths, but I got a B for my Amaths. Few things happened, Dad got a call...words I caught: "yadda..yadda..moving...house". My bro and I both knew Dad and that person were moving, but Dad always told us to not tell mom, I never understood why.

I decided to still go for choir, and when I got home. Mom was crying. Badly. I tried to comfort her, but I didn't know what to do. She was saying stuff like how when she overheard Dad talking about moving that it just shocked her, "Why is it that after 9 years, he can move on, he can continue with his life, but I'm still stuck here," those were some things my Mom said. I guess I never really understood, but my mom still loves him, she still loves my dad, or maybe she just can't let go. She was feeling miserable and apologising for being so weak in front of me, and all I could do was ask her not to cry, not to be sorry, and wipe away her tears. How useless am I? She's done so many things for us, and I never understood.

We had dinner and all, and I thought everything was fine. But I guess Mommy just was really upset, she got kinda drunk, I guess. I never knew how many things she's been bottling up inside of her. She was puking and feeling horrible, I just tried my best to make her feel better, but she kept on apologising for being weak. For not being strong for us. And she blames herself, she says that it's her fault that we don't have a perfect complete family. All I know is that if there's anyone to blame, it's anybody but her.

"I just look at him and I can't be angry" "It's not your daddy's fault, I failed him as a wife, I'm such a perfectionist, and I can't stand failing, I cannot accept failure" "I'm sorry Jane for being so weak infront of you" "I just want to be awake, how could I get myself so drunk?"

I just didn't know what to say. I can't bring myself to blame my father. But my mom is crying, feeling miserable. She's done so much in the past few days, she's gotten a degree, for crying out loud. But still, she can't move on. And I don't know how to help her.

I don't know why I'm writing these sorta things in my blog. I've promised myself, never ever to write personal things like this in here. I just wanna scream, just ask someone, what the heck should I do!? What can I do? She's my Mom, I love her, she's incredible and now in her moment of weakness, the least I could do is to be there for her.

2006-05-18T21:58:00.000+08:00

ELLIOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I can't believe it. Elliot Yamin is actually out. Darn. First Chris, now Elliot. I wanted Elliot to win!!! Dang it. Sodding voting system.

Can't wait and dreading tomorrow.
Result day. Sigh. Time to face the music.

Wrote a depressing poem. It's all the more depressing because it's bad too. Hah. Dang my talent-less-ness.

TODAY WAS A BLOODY UNLUCKY DAY

2006-05-16T19:10:00.000+08:00

TODAY WAS A BLOODY UNLUCKY DAY

So today, Shenn, KK, Leonie, CY, Elaine, ShiYun and I, were planning on going out to celebrate, SY, ET and KK's birthdays. But, man, today is really my unlucky day, man. First, because my ez link was out of cash, i used coins to pay for the bus fare, after paying I went upstairs, and like after 5 mins or so, the bus driver uncle came up and said to me in chinese, "show me your ez link, i ask you to show liao, you still go upstairs!", seriously lor, i was listening to my mp3 what, sorry that I didn't hear you lah, do i really not look like a student!? So, as if that wasn't enough, after we were at west mall and stuff, ate at sakae sushi buffet...we went to the arcade. For like the 1st time after years for me, I went to play at the arcade, it was really fun, i have to admit. I'm quite ok t car racing, apparently. Then Leo and I went to play those street fighter games, and after two rounds, this malay-dude-worker-guy came up to us and asked us how old we were. Apparently, those under sodding 16 years old could not enter before 6.30. That bloody sign was like tiny and allll the way at the corner. EXCUSE US FOR NOT NOTICING! argh. Then we went to play that hit-the-puck game thingy, and SY and I won against Shenn and Leo, so we continued playing, I lost to Shenn miserable. KK & I decided to get revenge against Shenn, so we played again, haha. Lost! 4 to 11...even though it was 2 against 1!? WTH?! I am so gonna win you one of these days, Shenn. So, bought dinner for Bro and I and headed home. KK got us on the wrong MRT, haha. Well, of course, we changed MRTs and stuff, we were chatting on the train, while i was sipping my pepsi drink. Ding, Boon Lay station. We got off, and before I could go down the escalator this Indian-MRT-worker-dude came up to me and scolded me, "Next time arh, this kind of drinks arh, cannot bring into MRT ok, you never see the sign over there arh?", damn. Once again, stupid signs. So, scolded by 3 different guys today. pssh. Sodding Unlucky, I tell you. Thank God nothing happened on the bus ride home. Freaking irritated now. I am staying at home all day tomorrow!! Not going out, nuh-uh, with this 'unluck streak' of mine, I gonna seek safety at home. If you don't see me on Friday, then, well...something else must've happened to me. PLEASE!! God, bless me with good luck, let me be safe!! Let all my loved ones be safe.
Once again, this confirms it, I HATE PUBLIC TRANSPORTATION.

2006-05-12T23:50:00.000+08:00

So. Finally got a chance to rest since the exams are over. But, man..I didn't know i was thaaaat tired. I only woke up at 4.30 pm today!!

Ah. I'm so happy that the peeps over at the forums liked my graphics. I can't wait to get photoshop to make better graphics and improve this blogskin.

Celebrated my uncle's birthday today. We went to a thai place, very delicious. But, damn, the tom yam soup was soooooo spicy...very very tangy.
So, Helen ah yi, mom, C-goo, and Eileen jie were chatting about something in hokkien, and since my bro and I don't understand hokkien, we were excluded from the conversation.
So, we were feeling bored and we heard the cadbury chocolate advert, and i brought up this conve about cannibals since even the people in the advert are made up of chocolate too, so we came up with our own advert.

Wouldn't it be sick if the world was cadbury?
You could eat your best friend from head to toe.
Slurp his chocolate hair and drink his fudge-blood.
Have a snack of all your friends and foes.
And when you've eaten all you're friends and they're dead.
You could have a bite of your own head.
Wouldn't it be sick?

Haha, yes we were completely bored. We really are sick and sadistic, aren't we? My brother says we should make an advert, though we'll probably get sued. haha. So, anyway, that song is COPYRIGHT. hehe, so don't steal, like anyone would want to anyway..

2006-05-12T00:19:00.000+08:00

You know they say life is short.They say you wake up one day, and, on that day, all your dreams and everything you wished for and you wanted, gone. Just like that, y’know? People, people get old, y’know, and things change and situations change. What I want is...I just; I want this moment, right now, this day. And my feelings for you, the way you look right now, the way I look at you, I just want this to last forever, y’know?

Well, it will. I mean, no matter what, we’ve always had this and had each other, and nothing can change that. I just want you to know, no matter what, you’ll always have somebody here for you, always. And, I’m never gonna leave you, I’m never gonna leave you. I love you.

I know, I know.

Don’t ever leave me.

I won’t.

Don’t ever leave me.

I won’t.I won’t.

Oh my god, oh my god. Please please tell me you didn’t do this. How could you do this to me…I love you so much.

I love you too…look, stop, stop, just stop.

How could you do this to me, how could you do this? Oh my god, oh my god.

I thought that of all people you would understand, why don’t you understand? I did this for us, I did this for us! This is supposed to make it easier! I thought that you’d be proud of me, I thought that at least of all people you would understand why I did this!

Oh god, oh my god…

I just want you to know, no matter what you’ll always have somebody here for you. I’m never gonna leave you.

And that, is the tragic tale of Jamie Bell and Evan Rachael Wood's characters in The Wake Me Up When September Ends video. Seriously though, everytime I watch it, I still end up crying.
Like Jamie said, Troops...please come back soon.

2006-05-11T17:00:00.000+08:00

What an eventful day.

The exams are finally over, so whoppee. But, honestly, I don't feel relieved at all. The 2 papers today were just so depressingly difficult. Like the emaths paper 2, i think I only knew how to do like one question. I mean i was hearing everybody's pens scratching away, well I was just sitting down there thinking, well this is sucky. I mean, for pete's sick, Jiuhua was actually practically sleeping! There goes my hopes of making my parents proud again.

Speaking of, I'm so proud of my mom. She has officially graduated and has gotten her degree. She was practically screaming over the phone when she told me that, haha. So proud of her... I hope she's proud of me too.

Dad's going off to m'sia again, so that's one sunday that my Bro and I won't get to see him..

On the upside, I've finally changed my blogskin! This time I did it all by myself. Ok, that was a lie, I did copy a couple of ideas and there. But the header is half mines, i modified it from 3 different images, I hope the creators don't mind, heeh. But still! It's quite an accomplishment, I mean, I did it completely with paint workshop! Whoo-hoo.

Well, I guess that's pretty much it.
One more thing, May is soooooooo completely filled with countdowns.

9 down, no more to go!
8 more days till script-checking.
13 more days till the release of High School Musical DVD

At least the last one is exciting.

2006-05-10T14:06:00.000+08:00

So..Lit paper today. Wasn't too aweful. 3 questions on Curious incident and 2 on unseen poetry. I kept repeating my points. Over. And. Over. Oh well.

Chem and Emaths2 tomorrow. Once again..dreading it. Especially Emaths.
Gonna go to school soon, see if there are any teachers who are free to help me.

One more day till freedom.

7.5 down, 1.5 more to go.

2006-05-09T17:41:00.000+08:00

Physics sucked. Emaths sucked more.

Literature exam tomorrow. Sigh.
I'm dreading it.
Make some graphics. Procrastinated on studying. Admired Drake Bell. Ate lunch. Drank Lemonade.
Yeah, that's pretty much it so far.

Now...on to the mugging!!!! :sigh:

6.5 down, 2.5 more to go...

2006-05-08T16:18:00.000+08:00

Exam week....sucky sucky sucky.

One awesome thing was that my Dad bought me The I Not Stupid 2 DVD, i only realize now that Singaporeans really love the word 'shit' a whole darn lot.
The deleted scences were awesome, they shouldn't have taken them out!! The bloopers were hilarious too, 'Ah mah, tuo! TUO!' Woah.

Anywho. Life has been pretty uneventful. Besides the exams of course.

One AWESOME thing though, saint.Gregg came back to the forums, woots! Man, I think i'm psychic. Hope I can predict the exam questions. Hah.

So.....physics and emaths paper tomorrow. Terrifying. And yet, i'm still here blogging. The wonders of a teenager.

Well, no one really is reading though, so, I guess that's as much for this post. Finally, got the thread back in the uniform again.

Toodles. :floats away unnoticed:

5 down 4 more to go

Bleh

2006-05-01T13:37:00.000+08:00

Haven't updated in ages.

Not like anyone missed me anyhow.

If you really want to know, I've been procrastinating on mugging.

2006-04-11T21:00:00.001+08:00

So, Ms Gwee went zombie-bitch crazy today. Wait...scratch that, she became even more crazy today. At first I thought that she'd finally do something good when she showed 'Les Choirsetes(or something)' to us, it was an awesome movie. Then...she had to ruin it all. She obviously has no heart. We're all protesting against her, Shenn had a row with her today, Ms Gwee didn't have a single good comeback, shows how 'limited' she is. Rina displayed her anger by throwing a chair across the room, which was cool. Amywho, the commitee, shenn and I went to 'protest' to Ms Seeto...hope it worked. If not, then you all will see the Choir-Gwee conflict in newspapers EVERYWHERE. Haha, right, i know, i'm being lame.

Can't blame me though, got me Amaths test tomorrow. So i'ma gonna study now.

2006-04-11T21:00:00.000+08:00

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2006-04-02T23:06:00.000+08:00

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Zhiyang Zhiyang Zhiyang, YAY! Bloody-nucking-futs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HE WON! =D *hyper*

WHEE!

2006-03-26T14:54:00.000+08:00

So I finally found a blogskin which I could live with. But the blog is still not really done(obviously).

CIP is finally over. It wasn't as bad as I imagined, actually it was kinda fun. Stage was, like, one of the most slack job. Just sit down and say, 'This place is out of bounds', haha... And the guys were quite funny too, oh and Hui Yock was too(remember, you're still a girl! XD). I got a Balloon flower! I think I irritated the girl making the balloons too, heh! Oh, and, Hong Wei learnt how to ride the Unicycle, well sort of, at least.

Still got tons of homework to do, and two tests to study for. Oh well, life as a student is bound to be hectic, bleh.

Going to dinner with my Dad and Bro at Hanabi! Yum.

They say bird shit is lucky, eh?

2006-03-25T16:20:00.000+08:00

Slept for 13 hours yesterday. Didn't get up to blog what happened. So, here it is.

Had fun at sports day yesterday. But it was sooooooo disappointing! Cheng house came out last! And we didn't even win cheering champion. Basket....
Oh, and something funny happened, I got hurt even though I wasn't participating in any event. I was cheering for the 3/4 runners. And Geok Woon was waving the flag around very strongly. So, as I was cheering, the pole connected with my chin. Not the flag, but the flag-pole. Ouch. And they say bird shit is lucky, hmph.

Well, at least I had fun after that. Shenn, KK, and I went to watch Yours, mine and ours, finally! Drake bell is so handsome! *squeal* And the song Hawk Nelson played was so nice.
I wanna buy the DVD!

I am so scared for my physics test now. My textbook and my notes are in school. How in the world am I supposed to study like this?!

Still waiting for a nice blogskin. Until then, nobody knows about the existence of this blog yet..

Welcome to my first entry.

2006-03-23T20:27:00.000+08:00

Finally. I got a blog. Mostly because I was just dying to post what just happened.

Today was pretty much, a sucky day. I wanted to go watch Yours, mine and ours, and finally see Drake Bell on the silver screen. But noooooo, they just had to have the sodding briefing today. I shouldn't have bothered.
So, we'll be going for two movies tomorrow. Nanny Mcphee and YOURS, MINE AND OURS. Whee! I can't wait.

And this is what made me wanna make this blog.

I went downstairs to avoid the 'after-rain' flies in my house and to buy stuff for sports day, and I wish i just stayed at home. I was on my merry way to econ minimart, and SPLAT. You know what happened? Let's just say a bird left something on my lovely WHITE vest.

My, poor, poor, poor vest.